good week

It's been a great week besides a few things but I think that will "iron" itself out.  Well to start I decided last week to leave McCann.  I have choose to apply to university of phoenix and complete my degrees online.  They actually offer the degree i've been looking for.  degree in human services :)  Like I said it's online so that means I will be saving the 300-400 a month I spend in gas just going back and forth to school.  This way I can finish my associates and then continue for my bach and maybe my master, if i decide I want to take it that far.

Plus cuz I've been eating at school and that shit they offer, i've actually gain a few pound which has totally pissed my off.  being home I can control what I can eat because I can buy it at the store and have it in the house.  I have pretty much limited the fats snacks in the house.  I try to only buy to stuff that is "healthier" for me.  I hope that I start losing weight again because that really upsets me. :/  but at this point I've stopped gaining I'm just not losing either.

So sharpie got approved to attend online public school this week as well.  I had her iep meeting yesterday and it seems like parkland was really dropping the ball last year.  And Agora seems to really be involved and they want the parents to be involved as well.  Which is totally more than parkland did!!!! I really think this is going to be a better situation for her than the last few years.  I know at first until she gets use to it, it will be a struggle but she will get it after time :)

Last week after class I stopped by kmart and applied for a cashing job.  the next day I got a call for an interview.  After talking to the HR lady about my work history and experience, she offered me a position in soft lines  running the jewelry and laway departments and even better it's 50 cents more an hour. 7.75 still isn't alot but it's enough that will bring in some extra money for the holidays and help get us get through the winter.
I started my job yesterday, it was kinda boring cuz it was mainly doing paperwork and watching the normal safetly videos lol.

they have to train me on the casher registers first then I'll get my training on jewelry and layaway.  so tomorrow is my first day of training on the registers but i'm "shadowing" someone so basically another boring day hehe. i like boring :).  then I work tuesday and someone will be shadowing me :)  but "if i'm doing well" I can go on by myself.  yea I don't see me having a shadow for very long, I learn fast :)  Thursday i'm totally by myself and then friday I start my training in my actually departments.  I'm actually looking forward to it because I wont just be standing at a register all day, I will be doing signs...stocking softline area, doing layaways and helping customers with jewelry.

so yes my 2 weeks have been great.  But on the other hand, things in the house are getting worse.  although ryan and I were not aware of it.  I am a horrible person to live with i guess.  I'm a horrible person for wanting to be told if someone takes my daughter some place without me and how dare I say something.  And after talking to you once and explaining it you do it again, so i talk to you again and try to explain in simplier terms that you need to let me know when you are taking my 15 year old daughter out of the house.  and wait you do it again.  i dont care if you were just driving to walmart, and i dont care if you live here or not.  she is my daughter and you need to tell me that you are taking her out of the house.  I have the RIGHT to know where my daughter is at all times!!!! it's that fucking simple.

i then I got words put into my mouth.  I never once said i thought you had a drinking problem, not fucking once.  i said i don't want you taking my daughter out and you deciding you're going to have a drink.  yes I know you said you wouldn't do it again and yes I said HOW DO I KNOW THAT!! it's cuz you have to earn my trust again.  i don't just give my trust away, you have to earn it!!!

I'm seriously so tired of this shit.  every week it's something new.  know you tell us your "seriously" thinking about moving out ok whatever move out.  I'm not going to beg you to stay or leave, looking here is your room stay ok. and here is the door, leave ok.  BUT if she stays just crap needs to stop, I refuse to live like this anymore !!!!!

blah ok i feel better now. hehehe!!! so basically good week and I'm ignoring the crap!!!!

almost done with ryan's stocking that i start like a year ago hehe will start sharpies soon.