another day

So I'm sitting here at school struggling to write my paper because I choose to do it on PTSD.  WTF!! was I thinking.  Why why would I choose to relive the hell of my past.  Why would I dare want to go back into the black hole of my memories.  I was perfectly happy with them locked away. seriously what was I thinking.

So someone said something to me last night that made me think and realized that I need to deal with it.  So I've decided that i'm going to write about it..maybe it will be a book someday hehehe yea fun i know but hell you never know.  I've seen ppl write about their lives hoping it helps one person and maybe that is me.  At least it should help me.

So maybe i should put a disclaimer on my blog...warned nightmares can be caused by reading :)..

ok off to class :)