the full moon

The full moon was Friday and yes I had to go outside and look at it and talk to the man on the moon.  I was actually howled a little out my window of my car hehe.  The moon just re-energizes me. and it was so bright.

so the doctor calls me friday (finally) with my A1C, and tells me it is higher then it was the last time i was tested.  Well lets see, the test goes back 3-4 months, ok that was march, april, and may lol hmm yea my sugars were very high right after my surgery because of the meds they had me on.  Then after my surgery i was on the clear diet and my sugar would drop so i was eating a lot of sugary stuff to keep my sugars up.  I sugar is always high first thing in the morning due to the sugar build up thru the night lol.  I bet if they retest me now, the test would be lower.  I have been testing 2 times a day and they are running 140 ish first thing in the morning and then stay around 95ish throughout the day.  I every hate doctors i swear. :/   just once I would like a call saying "angel your test are normal and you're doing fine."  No why would I get that. WHATEVER!!!!

As for school, it's going ok.  I'm alittle annoyed at the fact that I will have a degree I will not being using but I know it's just a stepping-stone to the next thing to get to my goal but still.  No college or university will accept McCann's individual credits but they will accept the degree.  that makes no sense at all but I cant force anyone to take the credits. I would transfer to another college but I've put some much time and money into this school already I can't get myself to walk away.  I don't want to quit.  I want to finish this degree.  I have some many degrees half finished.  I will finish something.  Now on a better note, I am speaking with University of Phoenix about transferring to their college and they "may" accept the credits.  If they do then I will be transferring after this term.  I will finish the current term I'm in now though.  I'm really crossing my fingers, they have the degree I really want.  Bachelors of Science in Human Services/Management.  I will be focusing on counseling or social work :).  Finally a school that has that option.

On the weight side of life, well its going slow but I'm still losing weight.  I've promised myself that I will not weight myself more than once a week and I'm trying hard to stick to it.  In the back of my mind, I think that everytime I step on that scale the weight should be going down but I know in my heart it isn't suppose it.  My doctor has group meetings every tuesday night, I wish I could go I know that would help me alot.  Another reason I'm hoping to transfer out.  Phoenix will be totally online so my schedule will open up and I can start to go to these meetings.  I'm very thankful for my family and friends and all their support but they don't understand really what I'm feeling and going through.  The meetings are for ppl who have had or going to have this surgery and are right there with me.  Going thru what I'm going thru, feeling what I'm feeling. :)

I've got this paper due this thrusday, cause and effect paper.  For some reason I chose to write it on PTSD.  My teacher says he wants to see more personality in our papers.  So I hate to say it but if that is what you want you are going to get it.  I just hope I don't go overboard in the paper.  I always hope that I don't regress things or start having new flashbacks.  The flashbacks stops a year ago and I havn't had any news currently.  I know I know I'm opening a can of worms here. I bring it on myself, choosing these topics.  The next paper he will choose the topic, oh yeah! fun. hahahahah

well until next time....keeping howling!!!!!!!!!!
BLESSED BE and may the great spirits keep you safe!